Where Oh Where Has Autumn Gone?
I keep saying I’m coming back to Medium and then I disappear again!
Oh Medium people, I promise, I haven’t forgotten you! I’m just…stuck in a whirlpool of indecision and I can’t find my way out!
I WANT to want to write. I really do. I’m just…stuck. I get ideas…so many ideas…and then I don’t know how to start them.
I have that idea for my Polycule series and I just can’t seem to get going on it. I have an idea for a small town instalove series (and even have covers made!) but I can’t figure out how to start again.
I’ve been doing some writing on Fiverr and that’s been good because the writing income is starting to come again but…why can’t I get writing my own stuff again?
I can’t even think straight enough to write this damn post!
See…blank. No idea what to say.
Ok — here’s part of it. For the past year I’ve been very…non-sexual. I lost my mojo. Both me and my anchor partner, JB, have been going through stuff. Just life stuff. So, it’s hard for me to write about sex.
I was actually starting to think that I wasn’t even polyamorous anymore because, well, I don’t know.
But recently, I’ve been talking to someone else. I’ll call him W. He’s sweet and very nice and very into me. And yes, I managed to get over all my anxiety and get into bed with him. LOL.
I actually told him if I thought about it too much I’d back off so we had to just do it. And it was good. And yes, I’m going to see him again.
Maybe this will be the beginning of something good for me.
I don’t know if I’m back or not. Maybe. Hopefully. We’ll see.